Welcome to Therapy Thursday everyone. Let’s get comfy.
As we enter into the last quarter of this year, I’m ready to do a LOT of introspecting. Are you ready to dig a little deeper? Look at what worked, what failed or fell short of expectations and why? Where you let yourself soar, where you let fear take the reins, where you dropped the ball?
I am.
I have so much from the last year (really, the last 3 years or so) to release. Even though September is such a triumphant month, being Recovery Month and all, and I’ve had some choice victories this 9 months, it’s been a roller-coaster 30 days.
Let me be so transparent with you, Saran wrap transparent:
I have struggled with clinical depression, anxiety, and seasonal affective disorder for 5-6 years, more like 10, really.
I am a survivor with invisible battle scars, who has chosen to bring those scars to light.
In the course of moving a week ago, I found a treasure trove of old drawings, sketches and paintings dating back to 2006. I didn’t have a medical term or label then, just some histrionic tendencies, and a whole lot of drama and brokenness. We had a running joke in my maternal family, that the more intellectual prowess you displayed, the more likely you were to be unstable emotionally.
Oh, boy, was I a hot mess!! and to see, just how far I’ve come… Here’s a glimpse into my mind, then:
Images from the darkest periods of my life, and this not even the half! (I should write a book, y’all.)
This is how I purge, how I clean house, how I divulge what was secret shame and rebirth in new light–creative outlets, and I encourage you to find what suits you. Thank you for allowing me to share. with you all. Truly God has brought me a long way. 😀